First Draft

Here and there we sit and stare

Not at each other but anywhere

You know my lips burn to touch yours

But not a word is spoken,

As if neither of us care.

You know I long and long only for you

Every smile of yours is a sunrise anew

Yet I’ve promised to stay on my side of the line

Rest assured my love,

I’ll keep our friendship true.

Smile for me, and I’ll smile for thee

And together we’ll laugh merrily

I’ll always be there, waiting for you

Each dawn I will wake

Longing for you silently 

There was no denying it. The moment his heart and his mind collided and uniformly made the connection, his body could not possibly dare to contain the thought. It would feel akin to the pressure of the sun inside him, no doubt the heat, and the volatility of every colliding hydrogen atom at the sun’s core was but a shadow of the power he felt bursting from within him. 

“I love you, Jeremy.” He spoke the words simply, quietly, almost a whisper on the summer breeze. Even as soft as the words were on his tongue, they bored down upon the atmosphere like gravity, pulling towards his lips. Like the bass rumble of a nuclear bomb, and with similar searing heat, his heart thudded in his chest. 

Jeremy just looked at him, stunned. Inside him, it was like a violin string, taught and strong as steel, had been plucked and vibrated from the crown of his head to the tip of his spine. 

And like that, in the sticky, hot summer afternoon, in a room full of people at their wit’s end, they came together. Jeremy’s lips were cool, soft and supple, but held an urgency as they acknowledged the awakening in him. He had never contemplated love between him and another man, and had never fully understood why he could never comfortably be apart from Andrew for more than a few days. The gravity that held him there next to his friend had a name, love. More than a name, it had with it the missing information that completed his longing. The passion in their kiss was like a solar flare, popping and burning, connecting them for the first time. 

For both men, it was a reawakening. Andrew finally understood how he had been able to give up his life for Jeremy’s, and Jeremy understood finally why he could never allow Andrew’s life to be taken. It was selfish, for sure, but he understood that, were the situation reversed, the same result would have ensued. All it took was that four letter word, love. 

It is said that love is like fresh air. Whoever said it was wrong, very wrong indeed. Love was more than fresh air. It was the crushing wind that could topple trees in it’s wake, and still so gentle and constant that it could carry a butterfly across an ocean unscathed.

And then I woke up, weeping for more.

John Dryden

(via loveyourchaos)

"

ONE HAPPY MOMENT

No, no, poor suff’ring Heart, no Change endeavour,
Choose to sustain the smart, rather than leave her;
My ravish’d eyes behold such charms about her,
I can die with her, but not live without her:
One tender Sigh of hers to see me languish,
Will more than pay the price of my past anguish:
Beware, O cruel Fair, how you smile on me,
‘Twas a kind look of yours that has undone me.

Love has in store for me one happy minute,
And She will end my pain who did begin it;
Then no day void of bliss, or pleasure leaving,
Ages shall slide away without perceiving:
Cupid shall guard the door the more to please us,
And keep out Time and Death, when they would seize us:
Time and Death shall depart, and say in flying,
Love has found out a way to live, by dying.

"

John Dryden

lightseanmoon:

(via loveyourchaos)

In every blade of grass, a story

In every breath of wind, a song

In every heartbeat, a poem

But where did it all go wrong?

I miss my innocent faith

I miss my optimism

Time has become a shadowy wraith

My experience become a schism.

They say the ones who always look to the sun

Never see the shadows

I’m here to tell you both always exist as one

Still, neither matters.

The darkness is dark, cold and sad

And the sunlight is bright, warm and dry

Find the balance before you go mad

Remember to cherish love before you die.

No greater commandment,

No greater lesson to learn

Than that which says to truly love

and be loved in return.

(via iloveu-iknow)

serenamatthews:

There goes the moon,
feel it sighing away.
Here comes the mood
which betrays me today.

If you are an angel
then I am the sky
kissing your blue down,
I dare you to fly.

Sad little teardrop
like fire on my face
the sweet rain refuses
to wash us away

I dream now of floating
into that black swamp
where the dragons exhale
and your poison is dropped

Please, can you hear me?
I’m trying to breathe
as you wait there like Death
with no apple for me.

 [serena matthews]

Now I lay me down to sleep/ I pray to You my soul to keep/ For if I expire before I wake/ I beg my heart not to break/ One day of honesty I need/ Before my veins no longer bleed/ I need one chance, my sins atoned/
And my infatuation dethroned/ Tell you I love you without end/ Before my last breath I spend.